Jacqueline MurrayOver the years I have questioned over and over, “who am I?” And each time it has led me to different answers. I have found that discovering myself has evolved over time and ignited my curiosity to discover more of myself, helping others explore who they are.
We know that we are all unique and one of my passions is helping people discover their uniqueness. As consciousness evolves, I love that I get to help you learn to love yourself more and have a deeper connection with yourself.
Learning and exploring who I am hasn’t always been comfortable or easy, but I continue to ask questions and create a deeper connection and understanding about myself. There’s this place deep within all of us that lovingly guides us and shows us the way when we give ourselves permission to stop and look within.
I have spent most of my life questioning everything. One of my fondest memories as a kid was going to church with my Baba (grandmother) whom I love and adore. I grew up following the Macedonian Orthodox teachings and questioned everything. Why do we kiss that picture? Why do we light the candles? Why Why Why? I have always been curious about people. How do they see themselves? Why do they do what they do?
I have come to learn that most people define themselves by a title or role and they create a story about themselves from this. Their experiences, beliefs and values assist them in defining who they are. Is your title, role or story truly who you are?
Is your perception of yourself who you truly are, or have you defined yourself based on another person’s perception of you? I used to define whom I was based on another person’s perception of me.
A defining time in my life was when I became a mum. I chose to be a stay at home mum for a few years with two young children and as much as I loved it, it was one of the most challenging moments of my life. What I didn’t know at the time was that I had postnatal depression. I thought I was being a crappy mum and that is how I started to define who I was- I judged the hell out of myself for how I was being as a mum. I’m sure none of you have judged yourself.
This lead me on a journey of self-discovery. I had no clue who I was, as I got lost in the roles I assigned myself, being a mum, a wife, a provider. I went back to work full-time, as I thought this was my solution. In some ways it was and in other ways, it broke me. There were many experiences during this period and times where I thought I wouldn’t make it, but I did. I spent a lot of time looking deep within, deep within to those places within my heart that I had locked away. I looked within to find myself. This is where the answers were.
One of the beliefs I had was that reaching out to others was an act of weakness and by seeking help, I would be vulnerable. In all honesty, during this period all I could focus on was getting through today. While in survival mode, I was reminded by a friend of the very thing I used to teach her, the simple yet powerful act of gratitude. She reminded me of my own words and asked me to send her a list of five things each day I was grateful for. I remember at the time not being grateful for anything. I really struggled with this but I did come up with five things. It was the same thing – I am grateful for getting paid. That’s all I sent her for two weeks. But I didn’t feel grateful for that, I was purely going through the motions. To my surprise, I noticed at the end of the two weeks, I started adding other things that I was grateful for. I sensed a shift in my energy and could feel a lightness in my heart. I could feel my perspective and myself change.
I focused on my well-being and started with simple steps. This was all I was capable of. I cut down on coffee and sugar and spent more time in nature. They were tiny, manageable steps at first.
Little did I realise, this experience was opening me up to my gifts, my purpose. During this time, I became aware of just knowing stuff. It could have been knowing about an event before it happened or that someone would call or show up if I had been thinking of them, or information was presented to me to pass on to another.
Many times, I would be talking to someone and would feel an urge to say something to them and I would have these conversations with myself and spirit, questioning if the messages I was receiving was what was required to be expressed. Each time when I expressed the words, people would look at me and acknowledge that yes that is what they needed to hear. I had never experienced this before and I started connecting deeper within and with spirit to learn what this was.
I discovered I could see energy patterns. When people would speak and tell their story, I could see energy patterns swirling and found the more they talked the more I could see what the energy was telling me and the person’s belief about the story or themselves. I became very good at asking questions, holding space to invite them to look deeper within and see what was happening for them. I started doing more of this and have been told many times the difference this has made to someone and their life.
For many years I have delivered various workshops and done readings and received great feedback about the difference it has made. When we make changes, they need to be in small, actionable, sustainable steps. This has lasting effects and creates change. It assists us to unravel the story we have told ourselves about who we are. It assists us to have a deeper connection to ourselves and spirit and discover more of who we are.
In the last four years, life changed considerably for me again and it was the greatest gift. I lost sight of whom I was and was always doing for others and had forgotten myself. Maybe you can relate? I was reminded of what I teach others and began using my own tools. Over time, I became very clear about who I am and what I am here for.
Who Am I? I am me, a spiritual being living here on planet Earth. I am an intuitive energy mentor here to serve. I am here to guide you to unravel your perception of yourself, beliefs that might be holding you back, assist you to make changes and redefine your story to create a life that you love. I am here to show you that different is possible, magic is possible and living a full life of your choosing is available to you.
What I offer is one on one consultations which are whatever you need them to be. Each session is unique to you and I will meet you where you are at in your life. Please contact me about my special offering for January for Holistic Bliss readers.
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